Mother of Columbine killer Dylan Klebold, Susan Klebold wrote a detailed essay published in the November 2009 issue of O Oprah magazine.  She said that she had “no inkling” her son was suicidal or depressed.  Dylan Klebold and Eric Harris killed 12 students, 1 teacher, and wounded 23 others before killing themselves over ten years ago at Columbine high school in Colorado. 

One of the mother of an injured student, Connie Michalik said: “I applaud her for the courage to talk about this.”

The entire essay can read in the November 2009 issue of O which was released today, excerpts from the Oprah website are here:

The day of the tragedy
“Early on April 20, I was getting dressed for work when I heard Dylan bound down the stairs and open the front door. Wondering why he was in such a hurry when he could have slept another 20 minutes, I poked my head out of the bedroom. ‘Dyl? ‘ All he said was ‘Bye.’ The front door slammed, and his car sped down the driveway. His voice had sounded sharp. I figured he was mad because he’d had to get up early to give someone a lift to class. I had no idea that I had just heard his voice for the last time.”

On suicide
“Dylan’s participation in the massacre was impossible for me to accept until I began to connect it to his own death. Once I saw his journals, it was clear to me that Dylan entered the school with the intention of dying there. And so in order to understand what he might have been thinking, I started to learn all I could about suicide.”
 
“If my research has taught me one thing, it’s this: Anyone can be touched by suicide. But for those who are feeling suicidal or who have lost someone to suicide, help is available—through resources provided by nonprofits like the American Foundation for Suicide Prevention, and the American Association of Suicidology.”

On depression
“From the writings Dylan left behind, criminal psychologists have concluded that he was depressed and suicidal. When I first saw copied pages of these writings, they broke my heart. I’d had no inkling of the battle Dylan was waging in his mind.”

Looking ahead
“For the rest of my life, I will be haunted by the horror and anguish Dylan caused. I cannot look at a child in a grocery store or on the street without thinking about how my son’s schoolmates spent the last moments of their lives. Dylan changed everything I believed about myself, about God, about family, and about love.”

 The live video from the classrooms at the school are distorted and difficult to see.  The photos shown in the video below are a little more clear.